"I'm really sorry if I haven't been the best friend you deserve. I been busy and when I do have time its not spent trying to make the most out of that time with you =( I feel so stupid for not even putting an effort after all the signs you throw at me. a simple hi from you and you get a useless.. "I'm busy" hi back. I really do love you taa. and you been the best friend I feel like I've been taken for granted. I hope you realize that its gonna hurt to see you move and as much as it seems like I don't care for you anymore.. you moving will hurt me the most =( but I hope we never forget this taa. 1998 and going? yes(= I love you so much."

I've been praying that you & i would be back in place. we're like two trains going down the tracks together side by side.. but we end up splitting at one point and aren't with each other side by side these days. I really have no idea how to explain it. but sometimes I wish we would row ourselves backwards on the track to be together again. does this all make sense? or is this just driving me crazy making up some weird ass shit to explain my friendship with you.

I do miss you. What do you want me to do to actually show you I care? Do I have to jump off a building? Kill myself? A "i love you" or "i miss you" from me doesn't mean anything to you? it's like it goes through one ear and other the other. You seem so hard to get through. You're never serious. You take everything as a joke. I hope you realize all this soon. i really do.

I love you Angelica Dumandan & i REALLY do miss you.