"I'm really sorry if I haven't been the best friend you deserve. I been busy and when I do have time its not spent trying to make the most out of that time with you =( I feel so stupid for not even putting an effort after all the signs you throw at me. a simple hi from you and you get a useless.. "I'm busy" hi back. I really do love you taa. and you been the best friend I feel like I've been taken for granted. I hope you realize that its gonna hurt to see you move and as much as it seems like I don't care for you anymore.. you moving will hurt me the most =( but I hope we never forget this taa. 1998 and going? yes(= I love you so much."

I've been praying that you & i would be back in place. we're like two trains going down the tracks together side by side.. but we end up splitting at one point and aren't with each other side by side these days. I really have no idea how to explain it. but sometimes I wish we would row ourselves backwards on the track to be together again. does this all make sense? or is this just driving me crazy making up some weird ass shit to explain my friendship with you.

I do miss you. What do you want me to do to actually show you I care? Do I have to jump off a building? Kill myself? A "i love you" or "i miss you" from me doesn't mean anything to you? it's like it goes through one ear and other the other. You seem so hard to get through. You're never serious. You take everything as a joke. I hope you realize all this soon. i really do.

I love you Angelica Dumandan & i REALLY do miss you.

Hello Summer!

so i haven't blogged in a week or so. hm.

Weekend: Promotion party for my cousin Kevin. hung out with everyone there. got to see my niece EllaMae. It's been 9months since the last time i saw her! she's adorable. she'd cry and go to me. too cute<3 don't really wanna go into detail but that whole weekend can sum up to: napping til 5. party. walked around the neighborhood at midnight. got caught by cops for running around the hospital parking garage. got dropped off to my cousin's house by the cops. then cousin Kathy dropped Jason & I to his house. had the house to ourselves. called up his friends. ate rice & sausage. got kicked in the face =(. slept at 5am. Sunday; woke up at 12ish. picked up cousin's dad nd brother at the party. Savemart with Jason. then Juice it Up. back home. came home around 9ish?

Monday-Thursday; nothing much. finals started on tuesday. Physics & Alg2 on tuesday. TA for C.D and English III for Wednesday & then TA for the office & US History. Drove to school and home freaks my mom out. haha. um. I got to spend time with Charmaine on Wednesday since we had the same 3rd period. Ima miss having a class with her though! even if she tortured me alot. lol. uh well Thursday I chilled with Mrs. Louie and made plans to hang out with her and Ray! haha. yeeah

On wednesday i got home around 12:45ish and my parents went out to go to a meeting. so i had to pick up my brother and sister at school around 2:30. blah blah blah.after that i got dropped off to my cousin's house to go to her promotion for Rancho Middle School. I wasn't even there at the ceremony LOL! my cousin rendal wanted to buy airhorns and we left the house around 4:40! and the thing starts at 5. lol. spent HELLA time searching for airhorns at partycity. instead we bought whistles. and when we got to MHS there wasn't any parking. we got to the field 5mins before it ended. BUMMER ! but congrats. went back to her house to eat. went home around 10:30. forgot to study for US Hist. finals but i think i did good.

Thursday was last day; went home around 1:30. chill with cousins. drove to the store to buy some stuff my mom asked me to buy. went home. BBQ`d for my sister's promotion party. stupid ass cousin amber kicked the grill and the whole thing almost fell on me ! bitchass. um. after i bbq`d i went park and whatnot. my cousin rex drove to the park and met up with us there. drove home.

Friday: Today i woke up around 12pm. ate. laundry. ipod. car. biking around the Pines. i fell! hahah hilarious. whatevs. nothing really. i chilled with my cousins again. can never have enough of them. haha<3

Tomorrow's Saturday. I kinda hope we don't go Modesto. cause they wanna go biking and whatnot again. whoo. &drinking ?! we'll see whatsup!


SUMMER. ITS ONLY THE BEGINNING!

blehk!

i'll get back to this in a bit..

17th Birthday

Today was pretty good. Happy Birthday Twin Gineil ! Hope you had a good one too.

So school was nothing much. 1st per; dumb test that i think i failed.. 2nd per; Carla went to get a tissue and then yelled "It's Christine's Birthday!" haha this kid though. and then Katrina & Ashley were talking about how it was Katrina's grandpa's birthday too. I hate how i got close to K & A at the end of the year .. not that its bad but yeah. haha well BREAK; walked to the tables with Carla. She started singing Happy Birthday and everyone else was like "its your birthday!".. Jonathan Nguyen "Can i give you a kiss? We haven't talked since freshmen year.. i miss you" hahah aww i miss you too Jonathan.. especially rugball PE with you. haha. 3rd per; Had to deliver some stuff to the office and student bank.. got food with charmaine at the vending machine. 4th per; talked about buddhist & finished the Matrix Reload. Lunch; kicked it in Ms. Weiss' class for our club. ate Ice Cream & Pizza. 5th per; tardie passes. cut some out. deliver passes. chilled. 6th per; same old. fell asleep.

After School.. i hung out for about 10 mins and then left. Drove to Costco .. bought some food and whatnot. drove to Outback around 4ish. walked around cause i told people to come at 5. hahah. well i found rachaelle chilling outside the theater.. and then doni showed up. and then melissa then chris and daphne. and then christian. ayana came hella late! haha

so christian daphne chris me melissa doni rachaelle and i decide to just go in and tell them we have a extra person coming in late. got our seats.. i sat with daphne and melissa. chris was across from me. so our waiter for the day is ADAM.. haha. so .. melissa wanted to know the size of the plates.. i said "oh. melissa here would like to know what size your ..." and i paused & laughed like crazy. my bad. uh so we got bread with butter and our drinks.. we ordered when ayana came which was around 630. late! daphne and i split the ribeye together. it was alright. um ate ate ate.. talked.. Melissa was all shy around Adam.. lmao well these niggas hella tricked me. so we were just doing the whole money thing .. uh $127 all together?! fuck. um.. ADAM came with a ice cream sundae + candle.. i was omg. hella smiling while they were singing happy birthday.. ayana took a scoop of the ice cream and flinged it at me ! but most of it went to daphne. lmao. then walked around the mall.. was suppose to take a picture with ADAM but neh. saw Marissa Earles there. hmm well walked around.. doni was fooling around too much in Forever21.. blah blah. walked around.. waited for our ride..

pretty chill day. i expected more but whatever.

18th birthday will be off the hook though.
hit me up about it. already got part of it planned.

Thanks though.. all you guys who came to my birthday dinner. love you guys!

Suppose to drink up tonight but cousin won't hit me up! this weekend forsure. oh man. can't wait..

pictures will be up when rachaelle uploads. +video.