what she said

chill

You know what sucks?! I drove all the way to New Park Mall on Saturday January 17 to pick up my order & guess what.. the dumbass windbreaker would not fit. WTF haha. all my other windbreakers are size M .. why doesnt this one fit? haha. I couldn't go to Eureka so i went mall with my dope cousin Kayla. haha. she's one crazy cool girl. duuude even if she's younger than me .. i can hella look up to her. she don't care about what others think of her. don't trip. hehe. well we hella grubbed ! put hella money on food. fatasses. so we ate at jollibee. i had a #5? forgot but i remember that kayla got a #3 cause it had 3 pieces of chicken. haha. i paid for this one so it was like $12 something.. it's okay. and after that .. we went walking around. went arcade inside century. haha i hella got owned in that one asian racing game! right at the turn.. i hella fucked up. so she beat me. after.. walked outside to starbucks! she got a cinnamon dolce something and then she got me a .. white chocolate mocha expresso. yeah my first time having a hot drink from there. she paid this time. uh then went walking around again. ended up at the food court and we were hungry again! duude what's up with our tummy? always hungry. so we bought Mc. Donalds. haha she said i have to keep our order a secret so yee`. ate. hella bomb ass order. haha and a smart way to save $$. walked around again. we kept arguing about watching MALL COP but i didn't wanna spend $10.50 or whatever. so i called my mom to pick us up. got home around 9:30pm. she slept over! haha we were hella having a deep talk until 5am. really fun talking to her though cause she accepts me for who i am. well she fell asleep on me while we were looking at my yearbooks. so i won the bet. yay! she went home around 4pm on Sunday which was the next day. uh nothing much in sunday. just lazy. monday no school so i just did some work and whatnot.

so tuesday was Rowena's birthday (: Happy Birthday Ading Fav. hope you had a good one. on wednesday i had finals for Physics and Alg2 which was pretty hard. I had a appendix sheet (cheat sheet) for Physics but it didn't really help cause i didn't highlight anything and it was full! like i used a like for 2. does that make sense? instead of writing 1 line on a line.. i used 2 lines for a line. haha okay forget it. but i think i FAILED that cause Fowler didn't give us the whole 2 hours! he gave us 85 mins which definitely wasn't enough for me. The ones i skipped i had to just BS it. HEY it's better than leaving it blank right!? shiit. Alg2 was aright but wasn't so sure about the matrices or whatever. got out at 12:20pm so i went home. changed and decided to go jollibee and get some food! yumm. nothing else after. slept really early. 7pm and woke up at 5am. got ready for school. starbucks. uh thursday's finals were Child Development and EngIII. easy easy easy. ima miss child development though. making fun of Mari "talked bad" (Tacbad is her last name) w/ Leo. ahh! nothing much there. just did the final and then we all talked about stuff. Break was boring. when the bell rang, hella rushed to Mr. Masuda's class cause i heard that he'd let us use the movie script .. but there was a limited amount so yeah. hella rushed with Melissa but he made us sit in out seats first. uh writing the essay on The Godfather was easy easy easy. after.. went home. slept. and idk what else. Friday i went to school around 9 cause i was TA for office and they didn't care what time i go so yee`. nothing much happened.. i just shreaded papers for Ms Louie. Break: Ajay came in the office to get her fried rice for her next class. she gave me her study guide for US History! oh man thank you Ajay! Last final exam was for US History. first 30 mins .. we did notes. waste of 30 mins. then took the exam. the study guide that ajay gave me had MOST of the answers so i have a feeling that i Aced that thing. stayed in about 5-10 mins after the bell cause i wasn't done. finished. went straight to the parking lot. drove home. went to sleep. no sadies for me this year again. 

Saturday; was suppose to go to the Job Fair at Great America but it was cold when i woke up at 8. so i ended up going back to sleep and woke up around 1. bathroom. brushed teeth. went downstairs to find something to eat.. yummy tilapia and rice. uh around 3 my dad comes home from visiting my grandma and ended up telling my brother and i to go flea market with him to get plantain (sp?) bananas for my grandma. when we got there.. most of the stands were closed already. and the food ! OMG i miss their BBQ ribs and fries. last time i went there was like 2nd grade so it didn't feel like a long walk. but oh man.. there was this group of mex girls looking at me. i was really scared. haha. well came home. took a quick nap. and ate. and now ended up here.

tomorrow Sunday; gunna wake up at 8am. get ready for the Job Fair. HOPEFULLY

i wanna get there before the line gets hella long. i don't wanna wait for hella long for a interview!

i should blog everyday.. i hate blogging this much for just ong blog! yuck. 
+ima have some pictures up when i get my d40. BYE

said and done

First week of 2009 was dope. Jan1-Jan4 i stayed home to chill with cousins ans what not. The day before New Years Eve, my grandma went to the hospital. got surgery. pretty stressful but i pray that she will be okay.

Going back to school after winter break was NOT great. i had NO sleep at all but managed to stay up in all my classes. totally forgot everything. my school loop password. locker combination. haha my first period ! damn. On Wednesday, Jan7, my besterest friend came to visit after she got out of school. I haven't seen Whitley in forever. We live in the same neighborhood too! That was my highlight of the week. Got to chill with her for 2 hrs & also with jluisa and daphne. lalala it's cold to even know wth im going to say. so i'll just cut it here and get into some serious things.

Oh & also on Wednesday or Thursday?, not really sure, something happen after school. I thought you wouldn't even notice me anymore. Sometimes i have a feeling that i did something wrong. something that made you stop talking to me. i gave you so many chances because it's just too hard to let you go. why can't you do the same? is it because you do wanna let me go? i just want you to tell me straight up. i'm tired of lies from you. all i ask from you is the truth. if you don't want to be , then tell me so i don't have to waste my breathe&time&money on you. $40 spent on you on your birthday. After spending $40, you gave me actions that made me think that all you wanted was something compared to what i did.

From my perspective, you can never find the right person. &action does speak louder than words. the action i have given you on your birthday is the best thing i've done for anyone. i've done that action because that's how much i love you. to spend $40+ on you. it was all worth it. WAS. @times i regret doing it but what can i do now? nothing. bceause that was that. it's done. i wasn't thinking when planning it because my anger was buried and stomped by happiness to have you.

There's really no words to describe it. What is said and done for you was coming from the heart. accept it, it's all you can do now..

Winter Break

so it's been 2 days into 2009 and i've already been going through a few things.  last night i read some old letters and whatnot. What was said in the letter got me thinking you guys gunna be there for me but in the end, I guess ya'll let me go. I'm not gunna say "fuck it" or "forget that. i can live without him/her". not like that anymore. 2009 is here. Decided to be a new me. Just gunna be that kid walking around school .. won't expect something to happen anymore. WTH i dont even know. what happen in 2008 is the past. all that "friendship" bullshit won't take me over. When I find out i gotta go a different way, I'm packing. Hello to the other side of the United States? or maybe just Cali. (:

^^
haha enough of that sad bullshit talk.

This break was pretty chill. Spent most of my time with the family. I came to realize that family is the best. Always there for you. Never turns their back on one another. shiit. gotta love them. Well Christmas was good. Didn't really get what i wanted but it's all good. Was suppose to go to see some snow on New Years day but my grandma went to the hospital the day before New Years Eve, so family and relatives stayed in the bay. damn. 2 more days til school. not ready but whatever comes, gotta deal with it.