is that for me?

i just got done reading one of your blogs & i dont know but i have a feelings it for me. saying that i lost your respect & that you wont try to bring the past back. if its not for me then aight. but if it is for me..

All I can say is .. why? i never done anything to lose your respect. i'm just giving the space that you need. I dont wanna be all up in your business & make myself look like the center of attention cause i'm not. If you quit on me now.. what do i do? You already know I'm still hurting that ever since Nov30, 2005, we havent really gotten to actually REUNITE. never got to actually chill. but its alright. we got hella time.ever after reading this.. &decide to not try then i understand. i'm still here for you. i gurantee that fsho. take care of yourself though. late.

For a real best friend.

so today was interesting.

School- Nothing really. 1st period took a quiz. 2nd period laughed with melissa as always. 3rd period tardies. talked to Ms. Louie. 4th period guest speaker which made me fall asleep for 10 mins and i ended up jumping alittle off my seat. embarassing. hahahah. lunch walked around. 5th SSR and Beowulf. 6th period we got to talk pictures. didnt take mine though. taking it on monday.

after school went to buy water at that water place. then went to savemart to buy my mom stamps. drove home. got ready. drove to melissa's house for cotillion practice. It was fun. My partner is pretty chill. I just hope he doesnt get annoyed by me cause I laugh too much with Melissa. Uhm so when i got there.. Hannah, Jessica, Ronald,Jhomel, & Kevin Miranda was already there. Just watched melissa practice. then we all started practicing. whitley and jluisa came. showed them the dance. lovely and danielle came and TRIED to teach them but they kept laughing. all good. then melissa's cousins came. UGH not to be mean but i didnt like one of her cousin..she was like maybe 10 or so. cause steven was gunna dance with me and mel's cousin goes "why boy dancing with a boy?" and that shit just got me hella down. I'M SORRY i can't be like other girls. I am who i am. no one can stop me. UGH w/e. then played ball with steven and melissa. steven's stupidbutt kept bumping into me. haha. well yeah, chilled inside melissa's house til 930. and then they dropped us all home (the ones who were left which is Me, Whitley, Jluisa and Steven) yeeah. well practice again tomorrow at 3pm. so yeeeeah.

aww. Melissa! you're hella chill. dude i'm hella glad you're my friend. actually no. i'm glad you're my best friend. i trust you with my secrets! &you should trust me. fasho. we gunna be best friends forever. haha. thanks for listening to me awhile ago. LOVE YOU BEST! hehe

i'll blog about it tomorrow. bye

Tayong Dalawa

was so sad. Audrey ends up falling on the floor and then JayR picks her up and drives her to the hospital. but he just stops on the road and takes her out of the car and they just have their last words. then the whole scene at audrey's funeral was so sad. i cried like a water fountain. Then the day of burial.. jayR watched a little video that audrey made before she died and boy did that make me cry more. when he was watching the video.. everyone was at the burial.. he ended up going when they were lowering her down.. but his brother told the dude to stop.. jayR ended up winding the thing to make her come back up and then he tried to open the coffin because he doesnt want her to leave. and damn. thats when i was crying like a sink thats on. so sad. They have a baby too, Adrian. she died because she had a problem with her heart i think. and it was too late to get a abortion. so she just gave birth and had a few days to live.

i started thinking about my grandma after. life's too short to deal with BS. so live life to the fullest because you never know. .

2nd period.

I'm in 2nd period and Melissa is having head problems.. HAH!

Be Back Later.

1st day of school

woke up at 6am. got ready and then left around 7:15. got there 7:30am? went to get schedules with daphne and may. then went to 1st period.

1st per- Chinese with Kang. OMG i already dislike it. might switch out. no friends. mostly freshmens and sophomores -__________- i wish i had it 2nd but its full.

2nd per- OPEN. but ima be doing community service in the office with Thomas Llamas -___-

BREAK - just went to check lockers.

3rd per- Office TA. didnt do much but chill in the office with Melissa and then started walking around since we were too loud in the office.

4th per- Econ with Castro. I never knew most of the people knew my name in that class. "Hey Christine! *smiles* sign my paper pleeeease?" i might like this class. hopefully Castro doesnt switch me in a different seat.

LUNCH - went to get lunch with Melissa and then sat at the tables with Rachaelle (sp?) Thao Melissa and them. lunch felt shorter than usual. then bell rang.

5th per - EngIV with Bogovich. EW i hate this class. especially when we're gunna have presentations. she's the only teacher with spotlights. i know cause i had her freshman year. OH GOSH... i kept falling asleep lol

6th per - Photography with Danielson. I know most of them so its all good. i have a class with Andrew G ! Mr. too cool to chill with me at Modesto. hahaha. I sit with Josh T (junior) and May T. (junior) cause all the seats with andrew and them were taken by nerds. haha

After School - drove home. ate. nap. &now im here doing hw.

I WANNA SWITCH OUT OF CHINESE SO BAD! HOPEFULLY MS. EVARKIOU SWITCHES ME OUT. -__________________________________________________-

Don't Drink & Drive

So this weekend was pretty interesting.

Friday: I woke up around 12pm. Had to pack some clothes since we were going to Modesto. Left the bay area around 5:40ish. &got to Modesto around 7:30ish because of LAME traffic. UM well got to my auntie's house who we spent the whole weeekend at. I went across the street to my cousin's house and stayed there til 11ish. Went back to my auntie's house and the rest of the bay area heads were there. Slept in my room. haha i got my own room in my auntie's house. DOPE. Just did a all nighter with all the cousins. played Chess. Watched The Hangover. WOWOWEE =)

Saturday: After watching the sunrise i got sleepy so i took a nap til 10am cause my cousin who's like 30 something kept coming in my room to take pictures. UGH. so in my room.. kayla jr and i slept there. the others just slept in the living room and stuffs. so i woke up to everyone else already downstairs helping cook. I just chilled in the garage with the radio, kayla, and my kuyah's wife. Talked about things. pretty dope. I drove my kuyah to Savemart to buy beer. Helped him carry & the stupid lady needed my ID. but im a minor so we didnt get the beer. haha stupid lady just wanna slap her. i only helped a nigga out. haha.

i'll continue later. BBL 8)

Cousinly Love. =)

Today was pretty Fun.

Woke up late for school. Got there around 830am. Class was pretty easy but i was tired so i slept the whole time and so did my nigga. After school, drove home. Kayla and Amber got dropped off cause I couldn't pick them up. Watched Wowowee at 11am. I was starving like crazy but my older cousin told us not to eat because we all planned to eat at buffet. So it was me, Kayla. Amber and my brother who did not eat. We ended up falling asleep til my other cousins came from fremont. Left around 2pm to eat at Happy Buffet. That place don't have much good food but w/e. my auntie paid for all of us. sat with kayla. i don't like their food -__-. Then we went back to my house. Chilled outside. Borrowed my mom's car to go to Eastridge. Just walked around. Got home around 7ish. kayla and i decide to bring our nephew joshua with us. Walked to Jerry's then to the park and then to Leanne's house. Joshua was hella shy so i brought him home cause it was also cold. got home around 830?other families were over my house. we all ate dinner my house. chilled. learned how to box -_-. no i'm not gunna fight anyone. uh and then kayla and i chilled in my room & whatnot. talked and watched tv. pretty chillass cousin if you ask me. understanding even if she's like 3 years younger than me. yee! so that was pretty much my day. not really detailable to me. haha well i'm out! peace.