said and done

First week of 2009 was dope. Jan1-Jan4 i stayed home to chill with cousins ans what not. The day before New Years Eve, my grandma went to the hospital. got surgery. pretty stressful but i pray that she will be okay.

Going back to school after winter break was NOT great. i had NO sleep at all but managed to stay up in all my classes. totally forgot everything. my school loop password. locker combination. haha my first period ! damn. On Wednesday, Jan7, my besterest friend came to visit after she got out of school. I haven't seen Whitley in forever. We live in the same neighborhood too! That was my highlight of the week. Got to chill with her for 2 hrs & also with jluisa and daphne. lalala it's cold to even know wth im going to say. so i'll just cut it here and get into some serious things.

Oh & also on Wednesday or Thursday?, not really sure, something happen after school. I thought you wouldn't even notice me anymore. Sometimes i have a feeling that i did something wrong. something that made you stop talking to me. i gave you so many chances because it's just too hard to let you go. why can't you do the same? is it because you do wanna let me go? i just want you to tell me straight up. i'm tired of lies from you. all i ask from you is the truth. if you don't want to be , then tell me so i don't have to waste my breathe&time&money on you. $40 spent on you on your birthday. After spending $40, you gave me actions that made me think that all you wanted was something compared to what i did.

From my perspective, you can never find the right person. &action does speak louder than words. the action i have given you on your birthday is the best thing i've done for anyone. i've done that action because that's how much i love you. to spend $40+ on you. it was all worth it. WAS. @times i regret doing it but what can i do now? nothing. bceause that was that. it's done. i wasn't thinking when planning it because my anger was buried and stomped by happiness to have you.

There's really no words to describe it. What is said and done for you was coming from the heart. accept it, it's all you can do now..